Thursday, 18 February 2016

Am I really that unemployable?

I don't really know if I should be writing this. I'm still not sure if I'm actually going to publish this. But I just kind of need somewhere to write all of this down. 

So as you get towards the end of a university course, you start preparing yourself for the whole world of work. And this is exactly what happened to me about 7 months ago. 

I knew once I graduated getting a job wouldn't be easy and I've said it before about a hundred times but only now do I realise just how difficult it is. 

In fact, I hate to say it but I'm genuinely getting to the point where I'm beginning to wonder if I'm ever going to get one. 

I've had a few moments where I've been pretty disheartened - first when I wasn't getting any interviews - but now that I am getting them, I'm starting to wonder when I'll actually be working. Everyone has told me, as long as you keep applying, something will crop up and even I believe that it'll happen when it's going to happen.

But lets face it, it's hard to go into an interview & not begin, even in the tinniest way, to imagine yourself working at the place. You kind of have to go into every interview believing that could be one. Then getting that no is a little disheartening. I'm ready to go into my next interview & burst into tears, pleading for the job. Is that a little too much?

The hardest bit is the feedback. 'We like you but we've just found someone who's got a little more experience.' I'm not blaming employers because jeez do I know now how many people apply for the same job. 

But at the same time, it's not like I've been doing nothing - I've been out there doing placements and internships to get that experience and I have really enjoyed them. Yet still the right job hasn't come along. And I'm having one of those days where I'm getting a little frustrated and complacent. 

Like I said I know I have to keep persevering but I'm seeing everyone around me get a job and I'm just thinking when is that going to be me? I really really really hope by getting more experience through these internships someone somewhere will think 'yeah lets give her a chance.' If not you might actually find me working in McDonald's. 

Anyway I just had to get this out. I think I will end up posting this so I hope I haven't bored you too much. And I guess if you've ever felt anything similar just keep going. 

No comments

Post a Comment

Blogger Template Created by pipdig